Life

This has been a tumultuous week. Things that I knew in my head have been crashing into my heart. I've been dealing with things that have been haunting me in my past. God has been a close companion. Along with my friends who have never left me, the old standby of Ossie (Oswald Chambers), and Paul. Specifically Romans 8. The take away...

We have an obligation to Christ to strive to be more like Him. We have an obligation to the Holy Spirit to do as He prods us to do. I have an obligation to God to worship Him, and honor him, and as Dave challenged us to do last weekend- make worshipping Him a lifestyle. God has given me desires and hopes and dreams. These are from Him. This cannot be denied. The desire to have a husband, and kids, and to be used in ministry with my future family was created from God, and so, I believe that He will honor it. However, as Paul says in Romans 8:17, Creation is frustrated. It is frustrated with the mundane life, the ebb and flow that is never ending. My frustration that these things aren't happening are normal. It is what I do with them that is the deciding factor. If I choose to allow God to be glorified through them and at this time in my life and if I allow Him to do what he wants to do-- be my sufficiency-- then His will, will be accomplished. The frustrations that I encounter here on earth are mere hills in the path compared to what glories await me in Heaven. I choose to strive to be more like Christ.

The wise old Ossie said this week that we have to take the times of darkness and embrace them as times to listen. I am in a time of weakness with Overflow. I don't know what my niche is in Overflow. Where exactly it is that I fit in this ministry that means so much to me and is on the brink of something phenomaly huge. This is my time to be quite and allow God to talk to me and for me to listen.This isn't the time for reading countless books and taking council from countless people-- although these are good activities. Instead, as David said in Psalm- Be still and KNOW that I am God. BE STILL. And listen, and He will reveal who He is. Not what He is going to do.