Thursday, November 29, 2007

Yikes!!

Lord Have Mercy!! In less than a week I will be going in for surgery. It's coming oh so fast, I can barely comprehend it. I am ready for this, but am icredibly anxious at the same time. While I understand the science of the whole thing, It's a completly different horse when they're talking about your internal organs!!! Mom and I spend literally all day long at the doctor's office- we got there a little before 9:00 and left there around 1:30, then we headed to the hospital for the pre-op stuff. My hands have been shaking all day long. I am totally on information overload. Lord have mercy...

There is so much I have to do...cleaning my apartment, cleaning my car, picking up a few things I need for the overnight hospital stay and the one week stay at Hacienda Mamma's, arranging for the sick time from work, helping mom get the house ready for the holidays and ready for me to come, laundry enough to make me sigh.

And that is what I keep doing... sighing... It seems to be the only way I can keep my head clear right now. I sighed my way through work this week (I'm sure I'll do more of it during the weekend!), sighed my way through the doctor's today and throughout the night whenever I think about what it is I'm about to do myselft...

Then. Then, I think about what is to come. Losing the weight that I have literally been caring around my entire life. Freedom from food. A second chance to have the life I want. A reset button on all of the horrible habits I've picked up on over a lifetime... I'm looking forward to the after. :-) I'm lookin forward to my birthday in January. Mom has already promised me a shopping trip!!!I'm looking forward to being able to
buy cute clothes. And getting noticed by guys...

Below are some of the worst pictures I could find of myself...I'll try to get some more up soon...











1 comment:

Joy said...

Beth I'm so proud of you and what you are doing for yourself! You are a very brave woman! Love you Joy.